While still overwhelmingly sad. I have decided that I must move on and accept that this is my reality.
The best way I move on from something I can’t control is to take control of the things I can. This morning I signed up for Weight Watchers online. (I’ve been in and out of the program for nearly 10 years.) I’m hoping that in losing weight I might have a chance of having a child without the help of the fertility specialist.
I also cleaned. It’s like catharsis for me. The more I clean the better I feel. Because I can control exactly how clean my house is. Today for the first time in probably years I cleaned our bedroom closet.
And suddenly life is a little bit better.